Maybe....

Its been a while i'm not the 'blogging'  type although i am trying, i think i am worried/scared of letting my inner feelings out allowing all and sundry to read them.
I've just read my daughters blog and it has got me thinking, it doesn't seem that long ago that i too was on a learning curve, one that just had me wanting to know more and more,  i trained and became a Crystal Therapist, i became a Reiki Master over many years,  i learnt many ways of the Native American Indians,  have walked a Pagan path for as long as i can remember,  although at the time i didn't really realize what it was, that came later.
I even learnt Self Hypnosis and for many years i felt 'almost' complete.   I say 'almost' as there has always been a missing link ~ one that even now i don't know what it is.
All this disappeared with the loss of my late husband, it was as if everything had been taken away from me ~ indeed it had, all that i had learnt was gone nothing had a meaning, nothing at all my whole world had fallen apart.
It's now four years on.   My crystals are still wrapped up not being used, after all they were my 'work' tools,  there are only a few  left out and i don't feel that i resonate with any of them,  however, i still wear my crystal pendants from time to time.
Gaia energy is 'my friend'  its the one energy that i feel has stayed close,  i feel as if i have been deserted by all my other 'beliefs' and i am still searching for that missing link.
Maybe, just maybe,  watching the path my daughter is now walking may awaken something within me...perhaps leading me to my own new path.
Blessings
Jx